...umm buh bye....

i just broke up with my boyfriend....

see...i liked him....maybe even loved him...

but i loved my ex more....

this is a hot messs......

its just too much for me now.....

i shoulda never started talkin to him.....

n i knew i wasnt done wit da last.....

i feel disgusted wit myself for bein so childish...

so inconsiderate...so mean...UGH

NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT

it was a bad relationship anyways....

lik...we argued ALL the time...

he was so contolling....

lik we ccan only go where he wants....

n he always had a messed up reason as to why....

not ta mention a gang banger....

but now he say he done joined a church....

welll i guess...n its not my place ta judge....

all im sayin is that i cant deal wit dis ish anymore....

n even though we break up n make up...

IM NEVER GOING BACK!!!!

♥ Kim Kardashian ♥

i really like Kim Kardashian....

or how ever you spell it....

i always watch the kardashian shows...
i absolutely love her hair!!!

GNR but she's cool...

speaking about hair...

is there a way for me to grow hair...

with a hair loss treatment?????

hmmm just a thought LOL...

okkkk
cant blame me fa askin!! ♥

Welcome back!!

its been along time since ive blogged...

ive been very busy...well not really ...

i just havent been bored enough to blog....

J/P

but seriously..

i like to take long breaks.....

and when i have things on my mind...

i come back n blow up!!!!!

 look at me hunties!!!!

i won uno baby!!!

BY MY DAM SELF!!!!

OKKKK!!! NOW ABOUT FRIENDS.....

I DONT HAVE ANY....

O MYABE JUST A FEW....

PEOPLE KNOW ME....

BUT WE JUST COOL....

IM PRETTY SHY AND IM ALWAYS ACTING A FOOL...

I WANNA BE A ACTRESS....

CUZ THAT WHAT I ALWAYS WANTED TO DO!!

IM WORRIED

CUZ I DONT WANNA LEAVE BEHIND MY BOO

BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY I GOTTA DO WHAT I GOTTA DO....

LIFE IS CRAZY NOW.....CUZ IM THINKING CRAZY NOW

I KEEP FEELING LIKE THIS IS WHAT I GOTTA DO

THIS IS WHAT I WAS MADE TO DO....

I COULDNT SEE MYSELF DOING NOTHING ELSE!!!

YALL JUST DONT KNO!!! I WANNA BE AN ACTRESS SO BAD ITS LIKE....UGH!!!

I CANT EXPLAIN IT!!....AND I WANNA CHANGE SKOOLS TO BE IN A POWER APAC THEATRE PROGRAM.....AND I BEEN TELLING MY SO CALLED FRIENDS AND THEYLL JUST BE LIKE ITS HARD TO GET IN....DATS WHY I DIDNT MAKE IT...AND TURNING UP THEIR NOSES TRYNA MAKE ME NOT GO...YOU KNO....TRYNA BREAK MY HOPE AND DREAMS.....THATS WHY I FEEL ALONE....LIKE NO ONE UNDERSTANDS OR RELATES....I MEAN....I WANNA DO SOMETHING AND U TRYAN TEAR ME DOWN....UGH!!! IM BY MYSELF FOR REALL!!!

STARRING OUT THE WINDOW THINKING.......

i feel like im a lone....

like i wasnt made to be normal....

u know...the ideal college grad....

haing babies and stuff.....

i wanna be more...

i thirst to be in the center of attention.....

I KNO I HAVENT BEEN TALKIN IN A WHILE....

REALLY???? MORE THAN A WHILE!!!

I JUST TURNED SIXTEEN THURSDAY!!!!

WOW!!! IVE BEEN THINKING OF CHANGING SCHOOLS

BECAUSE I REALIZED WITING ON MY FRIENDS WONT GET ME NOWHERE'S!!!

BUT THATS A DIFFERENT POST!!

BUT NOW I FEEL LIKE ITS TIME FOR ME TO FULFILL MY DREAMS AND ASPIRATIONS.....

HMPH!!!!

in my mind

i often feel as though i have no one to talk to....
as though im all alone....
in my own little world....
i go to school everyday....
i dont really feel a sense of bond with anyone....
bond in a intelluctual type level...
alot of the things i think about...
the average teenager would not be thinking about this type of stuff....
i have been told i am why too mature for my age....
but idk....

see my mind often drifts....

i was fb tagged!! TRUE LOVE

If she doesnt call you

[ Its because she is waiting for you to call her ]


When she walks away from you mad
[ Follow her ]


When she stare's at your mouth
[ Kiss her ]


When she pushes you or hit's you
[ Grab her and dont let go ]


When she start's cussing at you
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]


When she's quiet
[ Ask her whats wrong ]


When she ignore's you
[ Give her your attention ]


When she pull's away
[ Pull her back ]


When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]


When you see her start crying
[Just hold her and dont say a word ]


When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]


When she's scared
[ Protect her ]


When she lay's her head on your shoulder
[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]


When she steal's your favorite hat
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]


When she tease's you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]


When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]


When she look's at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]


When she say's that she like's you
[ she really does more than you could understand ]


When she grab's at your hands
[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]


When she bump's into you
[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]


When she tell's you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]


When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]


When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]


When you break her heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]


When she says its over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]


When she repost this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]


- Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go then kiss her
- When she says she's ok dont believe it talk with her
- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.
- Tease her and let her tease you back.
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes.
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.
- Let her know she's important.
- Kiss her in the pouring rain.
- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking babe"