.:second thoughts:.

hey blogspt!!!! i have been so busy today!!...i made some oatmeal cookies and handburgers for the family....lolz....well today i was thinking about pressing my hair....like when i watch tv i dont see alot of natural girls and i realized its harded to wear my natural hair that i thougjht it was....i mean...i love my natural hair....but i sometimes feel guilty for pressing my hair....idk what it is....but my hair is much healthier this way and although it grows either way....i just feeel like natural is the way for me to go....i have learned so much about my hair like how it reacts to certain products....i have learned alot about me also...like i care too much about what other people have to say and i need to become self reliant and stop relying on the general public to think im hot...i should think it first....and im working on that....seriously....

well today has been a long day and im stumped!!!!

.:i love being natural:.

how am i feeling today????....just fine....i kno ive been going off the deep end about stufff that really bothers me...but hey those are hormones for you....i havent really seen a lot of teens that blog...weird....im just getting used to this whole blogspot thing and it really works for me...wen i get my laptop back i plan on showing an update of what my hair looks like now that i use a conditioner to define my curls....

i used softee gel...and that left like a whit residue n my hair...(i applyed it while it was wet)...it took forever to dry...and i didnt like how it felt....i used a courling mousse and it made my hair feel dry.....i used a curl activating serum or watevr(its in a yellow/gold bottle) and it really doesnt do anything for my hair.....and the curl keeper stuff(in a green and whit bottle) smells good but it makes my hair feel oily /greasy....i dont like that....

i love the conditioner...for now....and im dealing with my two different curl patterns...i might actually wear my natural hair...i love the curls...i really do....and ilove that my hair is healthy....

but its good for me to rebuild my confidence becuase when i was wearing my hair natural at school...they just was hating on me sooooo bad...so i just flat ironed it so they would stop asking me...."girl are you having a bad hair day?" "my mama told me taught me to care how i walked out of the house"..."that ish look nasty, you need to do something wuth it!"...

it hurt but the funny part about it was that i learned who were really my friends and who still thought the sunshined out my behind.....boys and girls said things like that and those are actually the words.....but now it doesnt matter because i know the only person from keeping from rocking my do was me....and the hardest part is letting go...so i did and im learning to care for my hair...screw the hatters because im a trendsetter and way before my time...get with it....hunni!!!