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Sunday, October 18, 2009

BY MY DAM SELF!!!!

OKKKK!!! NOW ABOUT FRIENDS.....
I DONT HAVE ANY....
O MYABE JUST A FEW....
PEOPLE KNOW ME....
BUT WE JUST COOL....
IM PRETTY SHY AND IM ALWAYS ACTING A FOOL...
I WANNA BE A ACTRESS....
CUZ THAT WHAT I ALWAYS WANTED TO DO!!

IM WORRIED
CUZ I DONT WANNA LEAVE BEHIND MY BOO
BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY I GOTTA DO WHAT I GOTTA DO....
LIFE IS CRAZY NOW.....CUZ IM THINKING CRAZY NOW
I KEEP FEELING LIKE THIS IS WHAT I GOTTA DO
THIS IS WHAT I WAS MADE TO DO....
I COULDNT SEE MYSELF DOING NOTHING ELSE!!!

YALL JUST DONT KNO!!! I WANNA BE AN ACTRESS SO BAD ITS LIKE....UGH!!!
I CANT EXPLAIN IT!!....AND I WANNA CHANGE SKOOLS TO BE IN A POWER APAC THEATRE PROGRAM.....AND I BEEN TELLING MY SO CALLED FRIENDS AND THEYLL JUST BE LIKE ITS HARD TO GET IN....DATS WHY I DIDNT MAKE IT...AND TURNING UP THEIR NOSES TRYNA MAKE ME NOT GO...YOU KNO....TRYNA BREAK MY HOPE AND DREAMS.....THATS WHY I FEEL ALONE....LIKE NO ONE UNDERSTANDS OR RELATES....I MEAN....I WANNA DO SOMETHING AND U TRYAN TEAR ME DOWN....UGH!!! IM BY MYSELF FOR REALL!!!

STARRING OUT THE WINDOW THINKING.......

i feel like im a lone....
like i wasnt made to be normal....
u know...the ideal college grad....
haing babies and stuff.....
i wanna be more...
i thirst to be in the center of attention.....

I KNO I HAVENT BEEN TALKIN IN A WHILE....
REALLY???? MORE THAN A WHILE!!!
I JUST TURNED SIXTEEN THURSDAY!!!!
WOW!!! IVE BEEN THINKING OF CHANGING SCHOOLS
BECAUSE I REALIZED WITING ON MY FRIENDS WONT GET ME NOWHERE'S!!!
BUT THATS A DIFFERENT POST!!
BUT NOW I FEEL LIKE ITS TIME FOR ME TO FULFILL MY DREAMS AND ASPIRATIONS.....
HMPH!!!!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

in my mind

i often feel as though i have no one to talk to....
as though im all alone....
in my own little world....
i go to school everyday....
i dont really feel a sense of bond with anyone....
bond in a intelluctual type level...
alot of the things i think about...
the average teenager would not be thinking about this type of stuff....
i have been told i am why too mature for my age....
but idk....

see my mind often drifts....

Monday, September 7, 2009

i was fb tagged!! TRUE LOVE

If she doesnt call you

[ Its because she is waiting for you to call her ]


When she walks away from you mad
[ Follow her ]


When she stare's at your mouth
[ Kiss her ]


When she pushes you or hit's you
[ Grab her and dont let go ]


When she start's cussing at you
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]


When she's quiet
[ Ask her whats wrong ]


When she ignore's you
[ Give her your attention ]


When she pull's away
[ Pull her back ]


When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]


When you see her start crying
[Just hold her and dont say a word ]


When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]


When she's scared
[ Protect her ]


When she lay's her head on your shoulder
[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]


When she steal's your favorite hat
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]


When she tease's you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]


When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]


When she look's at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]


When she say's that she like's you
[ she really does more than you could understand ]


When she grab's at your hands
[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]


When she bump's into you
[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]


When she tell's you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]


When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]


When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]


When you break her heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]


When she says its over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]


When she repost this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]


- Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go then kiss her
- When she says she's ok dont believe it talk with her
- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.
- Tease her and let her tease you back.
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes.
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.
- Let her know she's important.
- Kiss her in the pouring rain.
- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking babe"

BLACK NATIONALISM

IM FEELING BLACK NATIONALISM.....
BLACK POWER
FOR THESE REASONS:
THIS SOCIETY WE LIVE IN WAS NOT DESIGNED FOR US
"WE DIDNT LAND ON PLYMOUTH ROCK..IT LANDED ON US" WE WERNT APART OF THE WHOLE CONSTITUTON THING WAS FOR WHITE PEOPLE....WE WERENT SEEN AS PEOPEL BUT AS PROPERTY.....AND THIS PISSES ME OFF....I MEAN JUST BEACUSE WE BELIEVED DIFFERENT THINGS AND SPEAK DIFFERNT LANGUAGES.....DOES THAT MAKE US SAVAGES???.....NON EUROPEANS LIKE ASIANS SPOKE DIFFERENT LANGAUGES AND THEY WERENT THOUGHT AS SAVAGES....IDC WHAT YOU PEOPLE THINK BOUT SOCIETY STILL THINKS WE WILL NEVER BE AS GOOD AS A WHITE PERSON AND THATS FACT!!
MOST RELIGION IS SOUGHT TO CONTROL YOU AND STILL DOES
THE WHOLE CHURCH THING IS OVERRATED....THE WHITE MAN USED CHRISTIANITY TO JUSTIFY SLAVERY....SEE THEY ERASED OUR HISTORY AND REPLACED IT WITH THIS EUROPEAN ISH!!!.....AND RELIGION WAS A FORM OF DISCIPLINE....
AFRICA IS THE RICHEST CONTINENT.....WHY ARE ITS PEOPLE THE POOREST?
WE ARE AFRICAN....POINT BLANK...WHY HAVE THE BEST SPORTS PLAYERS....MUSIC....CLOTHES.....ECT.....WHY DONT WE REAP THE BENEFIT???? I THINK ITS BOGUS!! AND EVERY OTHER RACE KNOWS WE'RE THE BEST THATS WHY YOU HAVE ALL THESE ASIANS WORKING IN OUR COMMUNITIES.....WE SPEND THE MOST....HOWEVER WE ARE THE LEAST UNITED....IF WE SPEND OUR MONEY IN BLACK OWNED BUSINESS WE COULD PROBABLY REAP SOMEOF THOSE BENEFITS.....EVER THINK OF THAT???
SPECIAL THANKS TO GOOGLE IMAGES!!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

YESTERDAY

JUST CHILLING....
IM HAVING A GREAT MORNING.....
I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED YESTER DAY.....
WHAT HAPPEND GIRL?????
I WAS ON THE WAY HOME(ON THE SCHOOL BUS)......
AND MY BUS DRIVER ASKED ME "WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO SHOW YOUR HAIR?"
WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT I AM SHOWING MY HAIR.......
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN...WEARING IT STRAIGHT?" I ASKED
"YEA..." SHE SAID
"O...WELL THIS IS SHOWING MY HAIR...AND I DONT WANT TO WEAR IT STRAIGHT...."
IT WAS SILENT
I WAS THE LAST ONE TO GET OFF THE BUS.....
LMAO!!!!
DONT LET ANYONE EVER BREAK YOUR SPIRIT....
DO YOU....
IF YOU WANNA BE NATURAL THEN ITS YOUR CHOICE.....
BEAUTY IS IN THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER....
PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT:
 I LOVE MY HATTERS....WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT YOU??
I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU HAVE NOTHING TO DO BUT TALK ABOUT ME....
AND THATS OK HONEY.....
I ENJOY BEING ON YOUR MIND.....
SO CONTINUE WITH YOUR DAY TO DAY ACTIVITIES...(TALKING ABOUT ME)
SMOOCHES!!!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

RAN UP THE BILL

I GUESS MY MOM AND I WILL NEVER FIND A COMMON GROUND..........
WE DONT ALWAYS HAVE PROBLEMS.........
BUT WHEN WE DO, THEY ARE CRUCIAL.....
I RAN THE PHONE BILL U.........
TELL ME WHY SHE IS GIVING ME A LECTURE.........
ON HOW SHE'S BROKE.......
AND NOW SHE'S TURINING MY PHONE OFF.........
I SO DESPERATELY NEED A JOB.....
MY MAMA IS REALLY PISSING ME OFF..........
ILL BE SO HAPPY WHEN I GRADUATE!!!!

SOMETIMES I JUST WONDER WHY THINGS LIKE THAT HAPPEN TO ME.....WHEN YOU LOOK ROUND AND YOU DONT SEE OTHER PEOPLE COPING WITH YOUR SAME ISSUES.....
YOU FEEL A BIT LONELY AND IT MAKES YOUR LIFE A LITTLE MORE COLDER AND LONGER.........
BUT YOU NEVER REALLY KNOW WHAT OTHER PEOPLE ARE GOING THROUGH.....
THATS WHY YOU SHULD BE BLESSED BECAUSE OTHER PEOPLE MIGHT BE WORSE OFF THAN YOU ARE........

Sunday, August 30, 2009

WENDY WILLIAMS

WENDY WILLIAMS ON BET
UMMM WHY IS SHE ON TV???.....
SOMETIMES I WONER WHY PEOPLE DO THIS TO US....
WHEN SHE FIST STARTED ON TV....I WATCHED A COUPLE EPISODES.....
I DIDNT LIKE IT....SHE LOOKED AND SOUNDED LIKE A HOT MESS!!
SHE'S.....LIKE......OLDx3!!!
MY OLD CHART
40...OLD
50....OLDx2
60.....OLDx3
70......OLDx4
ANT SO ON.....
AND NOW THAT IT HAS BEEN ON TV A LITTLE LONGER.....
WHEN IM BORED.....ITS ACTUALLI APPEALING TO SEE HOW COUNTRY SHE ACTS.....
AND THE HAIR!!!!
HELL NO!!!!
DAT AINT HERS!!!!
FAKE AZZ TYRA.....
HOW DID SHE EVEN GET FAMOUS????

BOY....AM I LATE....

WTF!!! I KNOW IM LATE BUT.....I WAS WATCHING BARRETT TV
AND
SOME GIRL SAID OBAMA IS THE ANTI CHRIST!!!!
THIS CAME FROM MCCAINS CAMPIGN COMMERCIAL.....
BUT THERE'S A CNN VIDEO ABOUT IT......
UGH....IM FREAKIN PISSED!!!!
ABOUT LATE STUFF :)
THE ONLY REASON WHITE PEOPLE WANTED TO SAY THAT
WAS BECAUSE THEY CANT BELIEVE WE ACTUALLY HAVE A BLACK PRESIDENT.....
AND I DONT CARE WHAT YOU SAY BIRACIAL OR WHATEVER...
HE WENT IN HISTORY FOR BEING THE FIRST BLACK PRESIDENT....
HE'S BLACK!!!!
UGH....HATERS!!!

Saturday, August 29, 2009

!!SOPHMORE STATUZ BOO!!

MY FIRST (ALMOST)MONTH OF SCHOOL!!!!

AS YOU KNO....N IF YOU DONT.....I ATTEND JIM HILL HIGH SCHOOL!!!
AND
WELL I THUGHT IT WAS GOING TO BE HARD BEING THE ONLI GIRL AT SCHOOL WITH NATURAL HAIR...LIKE IT WAS LAST YEAR.......
BUT TO MY SURPRISE IT WAS ACTUALLI COOL....I GOT SO MANY COMPLIMENTS AND I IN SPIRED OTHERS TO WEAR THEIR HAIR NATURALLI.....LOLZ TRENDSETTER!!!!
O YEA LOLZ I STARTED THAT AT JIM HILL BOOO!!!!.......
YEPPER....BUT I HAVE JUST BEEN A LONER THIS YEAR
BECAUSE IM TRYNA MAKE ALL A'S
AND I HAVE BEETER THINGS TO DO
THAN HANG WITH PEOPLE THAT I DNT LIKE OR VISE VERSA.....
UGH BUT THATS JUST ME......
I AM NO LONGER IN BAND.....LMAO
IM JUST FOCUSING ON ACADEMICS........
RIGHT!!!!
IMA MESS
I REALLI AM

HELLO KISSES

HEY IM BACK!!!!!!
SCHOOL STARTED AND I GOT BUSY!!!
LOL....NOW IM BORED.....
THESE ARE UPDATS ON HOW I LOOK
AND HOW MY HAIR IS COMING A LONG
I DONT THINK ILL GO BACK TO STRAIGHT HAIR
WELL AT LEAST NOT NOW
AND THIS IS HOW I WORE IT TO SCHOOL I ALSO WORE IT DOWN
MORE PICTURES TO COME AND MORE THINGS TO SAY
(((((MWAH)))))

LOLZ MY SHIRT ON BACKWARDS!!!!! I LOVE MY NEW GLASSES!!!!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

.:learning to live:.

im feeling so empty right now.....i just dont know where to start....i hella depressed.....

still having issues with my mama....and im thinking about moving in with my dad......i realli am....my mama never admits when she's wrong and she never gives me my dues.....i mean dam....why does she always think she's right???........she'll take her anger out on me form somthing my siblings did.....its not my fault....and it will be some little comments that are like so inconsiderate........

sometimes i feel like just running away....but where would i go???? how would i go to school?????

ugh and i feel so empty bcause u dont have anyone to talk to serious.....im learning to be alone and depend on me n God for emotional support.....I have to learn to stay on my own too feeet especially to get where im going......i kno these issues will nly bring me blessings and stregnth n the long run............

Monday, July 20, 2009

.:ramblings of a lunatic:.

im so bored ive been on the computer all day....with nothing to say or do.....no one to talk to....(especialy because dalvin and i decided to be friends....be cause we didnt talk as much as w did when we first stared out....) I HATE WHEN YOU GET WITH A NIGGA AND HE GETS COMFORTABLE......IT PISSES ME OFF...IT YOU AINT STILL NBREAKING YO NECK TO KEEP ME DEN Y AM I STILL WIT U???? NIGGA PLEASE......

i met one of my first loves today....his name is BENJAMIN.....i never knew his last name.....blame my bad memory.....but he was cute....he had braids back then......i remember a few of our past times....BUT HE DOESNT....see i moved alot when i was little and i never really got get and keep relationships......or friends.....simply because of my stepdad...and the strange mind control he had over my moms......(DATS A NOTHER STORY).... and know im in the present....not being able to find the mr right....or the best childhood friend....when i think about it....im so different.....SO AHEAD OF MY TIME.......

see i dont have realli anyone i feel like pouring my whole life out to...but people i dont know.....LOL.....how strange....i guess its because the reader of a blog wont judge.....or will they....idc....it wouldnt matter because i dont know them.....ive never ever been able to cope with the single life.....i love the idea of being with some one who understands me and love me for who i am exactly and not who i will never be.......MAYBE THATS MY PROBLEM.......

I WANA BE FAMOUS.....but idnt really care for acting and i dont like singing in public....ugh.....why cant i be famous for being famou like paris hilton.....i dont wana sex tape....because im an angel...LOL.....i just want to be the talk of the town......BUT HOW WOULD I DO THAT????? well i started a blog in the hopes that i would become famous.....but its taking too long....and i can be impatient......but i always try to do better.....im not an expert in any field...other than my life.....and all kids my age want to hear about is drama....and stuff.....also im not the best writer....but i speak my mind.....m not rich...but im dayum sho not po!!!!

HELP.....ive decided to go natural......and people at skool are hatin on me.....o what should i do????UGH......im still coping with that.......

Sunday, July 19, 2009

.:twitter:.

twitter is like the new craze!!! follow me at http://www.twitter.com/iLilian i have like 44 folowers and their white....not to be racist but on earth am i going to say to them when all they do is talk about boring ish????? someon help me

Friday, July 17, 2009

.:Updates&Self Growth:.



hey im so happi that i have lik 77 page views and 11 followers.....i value you guys alot even though i dont blog all the time or everyday....its just that i dont always have thngs to say.....:)

and if you have anything to say about my project im doing for IBMYP thats called hbcus vs pwi you can comment...i think i have that feature activated but ill check and see.....because i love feedback and comments.....and i dont realli check my emaials like i should so forgive me....i know i dont always spell things correctly are talk like i have sense but when i type i type what is exactly on my mind for bear with me......

tomorow i plan on going to geyserfalls with my family and hopefulli i might take pictures so you can see......im going to try to jump on the picture bandwagon.....lolz....i like pictures but i dont think its absolutely important....however it is appealing to the eye for followers.....

also i have went back to my curly phase....i have learned how to style and cope with my naturally curly hair....and i love it so yu can see the pictures above and just kno that i look HAWT!!!! yep yep HAWT!!!! so i will be staying curly and fyi my hair is natural and has been since i was like 10 or so.........GET AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

.: mama drama:.

im not white but...ugh!!!!!!!! my mama gon make me go off the deep end.....i swear...see i had 3 dollas and i wanted to go to the hair store and get me some gel for my natural curls cuz the gel at the house is flaky and it have alcohol in it....it also leaves little whit balls in my hair and makes my curls look like garbage.....so i wanted to go try some otha stuff and i kno i cant buy alot with three dollas
BUT
when we got there i saw some gel that i wanted to used and it was 1.98 and i was like im ready....my mama gone pick up somthing that looked like a 2 oz tub talking about this dont have alcohol and im like o ok dats cool.....and she got upset talking about that this just like the stuff at the house and i told her why i cant used that stuff in my hair........
THEN
she picked up something else saying that it dont have alcohol.....but i read it and it said for the RELAXED LOOK....and im thinkin well first of all i dont have a dam relaxer so why would you even pick that small bottle up???? i know why.....cuz u think you know everything and you always tryning to controll me.....first of all thats my 3 dollars and i dont care if it is just 3 dollars its my 3 dollars!!!!!!!!!!!!.......and so i handed it back to her and pointed out that it was for the RELAXED LOOK.....and she just snapped talking about I KNOW WHAT IT SAYS I CAN READ!!!! GONE GET WHAT YOU WANT BUT U DIDNT HAVE BUT 3 DOLLARS SO I KNOW YOU CANT AFFORD IT.......see thats how i kno she tink she know everything cuz the 32 oz i was holdn was 1.98+plus tax which turned out to be 2.12.....man she better stop bullishin!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

.:checking back in:.

my apologies!! my brother hogs the computer....but i got my laptop back from the shop so im good!!!!!!! man i broke my nail yesterday.....flushing the toilet after i was cleaning the bathroom!! now i have to fix it......acrylics.........UGH!!!

Sunday, July 12, 2009

.:HBCU vs PWI:.

i hope everyone knows what a HBCU(Historically Black Colleges and Universities) and a PWI(Predominantly White Instsitutions) is......ok which one is better??? if you surf the net and search top 100 colleges...you will see that harvard and all the ivies rank top on the charts but HBCUs ont rank on that list...so to me what that is saying is that HBCU arent doing anything and do not measure up to a PWI...that maybe the case....if you take a harvard grad vs a howard grad...who gets the job?.....alle you really hear from kids my age many of the seniors that just graduated...is that they want to go to HBCU for the social events......but what about and education????......i know if your black and you go to a PWI you might be bored if you're not interested in what white people do for fun.....but that will help you in the long run to stay focused on your school work.........SO WHAT DO YOU THINK????????????????

I am doing my ib personal project on this and my research isnt going so good...no one has really anything to say n this suject..ii i have roughliy 4 sources with people's experiences ect....i asked my family members about this nd i only got 2 responces.....ugh!!!! and thats when i got the notion that this would be a great discussion for my blog...lolz and i also get work done........

Thursday, July 9, 2009

.:what ive up to:.

hey im back!!!! i had fun in hattiesburgh lolz....i saw my family.....and yesterday my mama ordered my zune!!!! lolz.....i cant wait to get it!! and i am very happi to have 10 followers!!!!....remember to tell a friend!!!!

i have been ging through a lot of mood swings....mainly because my boyfriend doesnt call me like he did when we first started out....i mean i barely get one call a day.... and im not used to being neglected.....like he say he busy...but he cant tex to say good mornin or good night or hey baby im just checking to see if you are alive!!!!......ion get it man.....i broke up wit him and it was nt 24hr s before i called him back tryna get back wit him.....another first!!!.....ugh and that didnt even change anything........o and wen we do talk on the phone it dont be about nothing.....what am i gone do?????...nigga dont respond to tex messages......i swear im about to drop him off!!!!

besides boyfriend trouble....and waiting on my early bday present.....im good!!! i plan on going to he blue bayou soon...........i dont really kno the date so.........yea

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

:.broke family members:.

watup yall!!!!!.....sorri i didnt blog fa three days....and also i wont be blogging fri-sun...for the fourth.....so with that being sed.....i going to do an early blog for indendence day..... but the issue is.....idk what i wanna say.....im so random idk what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.........

welll ill talk about the people who think just because you got some money they have some too......they bring all their issues to u like u a supahero.....baby plaese......and like steve harvey sed.....the best thing you can do fa broke people is not being broke......and my daddy sed dont tell nobody you got money.....thats the best way to keep yo money......lolz.....toses are some tips to being independet........

GET YO OWN!!!!!!!
-I LOVE THAT SONG!!!!....ITS COOL I GOT IT.......

Saturday, June 27, 2009

.:black people suck!:.

CAUTION:
THIS MAY OFFEND SOMEBODY...AND GUESS WHAT I DONT CARE!!! YOU NEED TO READ THIS!!!

my uncle jason is being convicted for forgery.....he sits in jail without a public defender....he is wrongly accused for robery and writting bad checks.....the person they have on camera is lightskinned.....my uncle is bacon burnt....the detective(white) says that it is my uncle and that she's God....the judge does not go by the evidence...but rather by what he is being told.....all the police officers and officials know that it isnt my uncle......but they have yet to asssign him a public official.....they have robbed him of his rights.....we his family cannot afford to get him an attorney.....so what can we do???

theses attorneys are only interested in getting their money....no one cares about the people...my uncle spends countless night in jail....where his rights are being overlooed and all you care about is your check.....we as a race....we have to better.....had it been your cloese relative you would hate it wouldnt you???? i hate how we as a race hate each other.....how we are always trying to get ahead the wrong way.....how we forget about family and how it takes a village to raise a child.....how we should help others in a time of need....

the white man does not have to enslave us or kill us off anymore!!!we are doing it to ourselves....we discriminate amongst ourselves.....we are willing to sell each other out to get ahead.....forgetting our morals and family.....the black family is torn...because most of our black men arein jail....or dead.....we need to have all of our fathers unite with their sons and just say even though i wasnt there before...im here now and i mean it.....and if you didnt have your father....you step up and say im going to be there for my children.....im going to be successful...

and the media makes it seem like all black people can be is rappers, drug deallers, and video hoes.....and the make it seem very appealing to the eye....and show young children that this is the life you should live....but advertising what consequences come along with it.....and thats BET MTV AND VH1 with thoses crappy shows......with crappi black people leading less educated black people on!!!!and also its the parents fault!!!!

we have to do better.....i swear... if no one ever gets nothing out of my blog i swear you better get this!!!!

PS...I AM BLACK AND NO I AM NOT RACIST....I LOVE MY RACE BUT HATE THE SHORTCOMINGS OF US AS A PEOPLE READ IT AND DO BETTER.....THATS ALL YOU CAN DO.....AND ITS TRUE ABOUT MY UNCLE....AND WE AS A FAMILY ARE TRYING TO HELP HIM....BUT I WANT EVERYONE WHO READS ME OR WHO DOESNT TO KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE STATE OF MISSISSIPPI......THIS IS REAL.....AND WE AS A PEOPLE JUST NEED TO SPEAK UP ABOUT THIS STUFF BECAUSE IF IGNORE IT IT JUST DOESNT GO AWAY....AND I DONT HOLD MY TONGUE FOR NOBODY.....THATS MY UNCLE AND I COULD VE HAPPEND TO ANYONE BUT IT HAPPEND TO THE WRONG NEICE!!!!
GOD BLESS

:.he was..is....and will always be:.

did you care about micheal when he was alive???? whoses side were you on when he was convicted??? i hate this about death....when the person is alive you give them hell and when they die you acting a fool at the funeral....talking about how much you loved them.....my mother love micheal jackson....she dresed like him when she was little and i have pictures....she was a die hard fan.....i bet there were alot of die hard fans.....

i personally think these white people didnt give two hoots about micheal....they wanted him convicted....crazy white parents they sent their kids over there....it was all a big scam!!....and when he was going broke....no one even bothered to help him....they say he was taking pills and he was stressed out.....well why was he stressd?....the man doesnt make the same money he used to....and how is he going to pay his bills and feed his kids???? did you ever think about that??

now that he's gone you feel sorri for yourselves dont you......well you should!!!!.....he was a good person.....and these white tabloids didnt do anything but exploit crap about him to the world!!! talking about how he turned himself white.....if he wanted to be white thats him...white people want to be black so what!!! and so what he got nose surgeries....people do it everyday.....

and i do not believe micheal was a child molestor.....for one thing....he has 3 kids....
i did not believe he was gone...not at all!!!! micheal was everyone's superhero.....but now he has moved on to a bettere place!!!....micheal was...is and will always be the best!!!!
micheal went through a lot throughout his life.....and the best thing todo is celebrate him.....

Thursday, June 25, 2009

.:going to college:.

why arent the friends i started freshmen year out with still my friends??
people change
why does my mama want me to stay in the band?
for college funds
why dont i want to be in the band???
i changed!!!

i wont be in the band anymore....why because when i get to college...i will not be getting up in the morning for band practice...i know ill get kickd out so why bother.....i can play...i just dont want to.....call me lazy but hey...its not your life......sometimes i wish my mama would just calm down and let me figure it out......so how am i goig to college???well im in MYPIB...and if i continue and be in IB....ill be top notch....i have a 3.5 gpa....and the sky is the limit.....i plan to do better....i realli do....but the band is not for me.....i understand thatstudent loans are evil...and i will never be able to pay them off...thats the importance of a job....or at least my daddy!!!!LOLZ!!!!

.:dont talk to me!!!!:.

um.....if you dont come to my house why would i go to yours? if you dont talk to me....why would i talk to you??????

UGH!!!! MY SIBLINGS ARE REALLY GETTING ON MY NERVES!!!! I MEAN MY LITTLE SISTER WILL CALL EVERY RELATIVE WE HAVE WHETHER SHE KNOWS THEM OR NOT....WHETHER THEY CALL US OR NOT......JUST CALLING PEOPLE PEOPLE TO VISIT THEM AT THEYRE HOUSE.......DO THEY VISIT US....UM NO!!!! SO WHY BOTHER.....I DONT GO WHERE IM NOT WANTED AND I DONT TALK TO PEOPLE WHO DONT TALK TO ME....SIMPLE AND PLAIN!!!!!

MAYBE THATS AN ISSUE I HAVE TO DEAL WITH BUT ITS COMMON SENSE!!! IF SOME ONE ISNT_____TO ME THEN IM NOT______TO THEM.....AND THAT GOES GOOD OR BAD!!!! MAN IDK WHAT TO SAY.....MAN MY MAMA IS ALWAYS ASKING WHY WONT YOU ASK SO AND SO FOR A RIDE.....UM MAMA I DONT ASSOCIATE WITH THESE PEOPLE.....DUH!!!! UHHHH PARENTS.......

PS....IM RANTING BECAUSE MY SIS CALLED OUR AUNT THAT GOES TO OUR CHURCH AND I DONT REALLY CARE FOR HER OR MY CUZZO LIKE THAT...THEY JUST PEOPLE I SMILE AND SAY HEY TO.....LIKE THE REST OF THE CHURCH.....AND MY MAMA DIDNT WANT ME AT HOME BY MYSELF SO SHE SED IF MY BROTHER GOES I HAVE TO GO.....AND IM NOT GOING SO I SED ILL JUST VIVSIT MY GRANNY!!!!! CUZ YOU KNOW!!!!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

.:nail art:.

WHY DO PEOPLE HATE NAIL ART?????

NAIL ART EXPRESSES HOW YOU FEEL....ITS LIKE MONA LISA OR THE BIRTH OF VENUS.....I DONT GET WHY PEOPLE SAY THAT IT IS GHETTO OR LOW CLASS.....I THINK ITS MAINLY THE UPPITY WHITE WOMEN THAT SAY THAT....WHITE PEOPLE GET THEIR NAILS DONE ALL THE TIME....I GET TIRED OF THEE PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY KNOW WHATS IN DENOUNCING AN URBAN TREND....BLACK PEOPLE HAVE BEEN GETTING THEIR NAILS DONE FOR AGES...I KNOW I HAVE.....AND HOW I DO MY HAIR AND WEAR MY NAILS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE GENERAL PUBLIC....

I PERSONALLY LOVE NAIL ART....AND OF CURSE...LONG NAILS!!!! I AM CURRENTLI TRYING TO GET THEM TO GROW.....THE ARE GROWING BUT WANT THEM LIKE THE FRNCH MAICURE ABOVE.....AND THAT SHOULDNT TAKE LONG..............I USE SALLY HENSEN GROW NAILS GROW NAIL GROWTH SOLUTION ITS N A ORANGE BOTTLE WITH A WHITE TOP!!!! AND THE PICTUES ARE FROM NAILS MAGAZINE...I GO THERE TI GET INSPIRATION FROM TIME TO TIME!!!

Monday, June 22, 2009

.:antique silver:.

i am so happy that my grandma gave me some of her antique silver.....i found out that it was woth at least 400 dollars...but how am i going to get that 400 dollars? through a auction...i dont want to sell it online.....U-G-H.......ill figure it out hopefulli.....i want to polish it so that it looks up to part......but hey......and i wouldve gotten more but my mama was trippin last night!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorri this is so not long....but i realli dont have anything to say.....this is morer of a statuz!!!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

.:a father has responsibility:.

i have a father and i have a daddy....my father tells me wrong and right, makes sure im in church on sunday morning, makes sure my skirt isnt to tight or too short....leave somethng th the imagination, makes sure these boys come right and threatens the ones who dont....my father is my mother.....

see a father is more than sperm donor, more than a male figure.....a father not only give you money but also makes sure you have the neccesities of life...the physical, spiritual, and mental......always there when i need a hand ,a shoulder, advice, or just a hug....words cannot express the words i have for my mother....for she does what is right..........

my daddy stays in ocklahoma....has been married twice and has about 5 kids.....i have his name on my birth certificate..but my government name is my mother.....my daddy believes he knows everything, he does not believe in God, he was an architect now he is a professor, i think my younger brothers are his favorites because he buys them what they want....he has said that he only has 2 smart children....me and my younger borther bear....i love all my siblings...even the ones i do not know....because i know that they didnt ask to be brought here and they didnt ask for my daddy to be theirs too....

i dont understand why someone has kids and does not take care of them...once you have children they are a fulltime responsibility...they are not something you can just throw away when you are mad or tired....in the bible it says that childern should love honor and obey your children....also it says for the father not to provoke his children to rage....

my heart is filled with so many emotions for my daddy....and no matter what he does to me...he is still my daddy.........

Saturday, June 20, 2009

.:my trip to the dentist appointment:.

yesterday i went to the dentist......i got a cleaning.......while they were cleaning my teeth they were basically calling out what was wrong but it was like a code.....after they cleaned my teeth they escorted me to an operaty room....and im like operatory...has something to do with operation...like surgery....

well the lady left my papers in the room so glanced at the...it had three things...@ composites and one tooth decade remnant...or something....i knew i had at least one cavity so....and i also had one tooth that never fell out and it just layed there.....so i figured i mustve had 2 cavities....

U-G-H!!! I was so scared because i could've sworn i heard a little boi screaming bloody murder!!! i looked around the room and it wasn't too scary...except for the little straight borad jacket....i hink its used to fasten kids down...and the one in my roomlooked like t was recently used.............

then the doctors come in they are very quiet and they didnt talk much to me...but to themselves...joking and such...so i felt better.....all i did was closed my eyes and prented it was a dream....it didnt hurt....and im just like do whatever you need to do and do it quickli...people say im impatient...and they are exclusively right!!!!!!!!!!!!

.:the yard sale:.

hello...sorri havent posted in a couple of days...i just got done having the yard sale and i helped my granni put the remnats away.....and took a shower!!!!

i love yard sales...as long as i'm selling things...but what i cant stand when people always want something for nothing!!!.....and its not just blacks or whites....its both!!!!.....see white people go o yard sales looking for antique things...however they act like 5 or 3 dollars is too much.....for instance this white lady came by and walked around with a sour look on her face and when it seemed like she didnt find anything and was walking to her car....she turned around and asked how much our antique love seat was...and it was 25 dollars....she got in that car quicker than anything....boi i tell ya...

then this whte man came.....he was old and a world war 2 veteran....still kicking...lolz....he came and wanted to kno how much the vases were....they were 1 dollar a piece....then he was like i take flowers to the nursing home....and im not complaining aqbout the price but i just think thats a little high....so he left...and my granny is like if you cant spend a dollar on someone else then it must not be worth anything............

she asked my grandma what do you do with a phone.....ummm no kidding.....my grandmama dumbed down everythng....but when she left she sed people will come around acting like that to get you to change your prices....

we also had a family come and to me they just acted too good.....they would ask you how much something was then they would act like they didnt need it....WTF!!!!...baby if you are not interested inthe item why ask???.....if you too good for yard sales...why show up???? UGH!!!!

we had more visitors....but those are the one who really stuck out to me....we made about 60 dollars.....it really didnt matte because i was going to get my zune anyways but my granny wants to see if my mama will go ahead and oreder it and she'll pay her back...well i hope so because i want it so bad!!!!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

.:RUMORS:.

sometimes church people are the worst people....sometimes you closest friend is your closest enemy....sometimes water is better than blood cuz im no vampire....and you never kno who is who or what is what until stuff like this happen.....

TEXIN AFTER CHURCH ON SUNDAY......
BOY: WELL WELL WELL I HEARD THAT YOU COUSIN KISSED JARED...
ME: FA REAL??? O WELL DATS HER...
BOY: YOU NOT MAD?
ME: NA IM GOOD....
BOY: O..DIDNT YALL TALK??
ME:WE WER TOGETHER AT ONE TIME...
BOY: WHEN?? HE MUST NOT HAVE CLAIMED YOU CUZ AINT NO BODY KNO
ME: YEA I KNOW.....WE DIDNT WANT MESSY PEOPLE LIKE YOU TO FIND OUT!!!!

WRITIN NOTES IN CHURCH TO MY CUZIN IN WED. SERVICE.....
ME: I HEARD YOU KISSED JARED
CUZIN: WHAT THAT'S NASTY....WHO TOLD YOU THAT?
ME: EVERY BODY IN THE CHURCH WAS TEXIN MY PHONE SAYING YALL KISSED
CUZIN: GIRL NO...WHO ALL TEXT? IM NOT GON SAY NOTHING BUT WE JUST COOL NOTHING LIKE THAT....
ME: O JUST THE USUALS....I CANT TELL U OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD...
CUZIN: JUST BOYS OR GIRLS 2 CUZ THATS NASTY...I WOULD NEVA DO THAT DO HE KNO ABOUT THE RUMOR??
ME: YEA..IDK..LOLZ
CUZIN: THATS NOT FUNNY..LOL....WHAT HE SAY ABOUT ITS...BUT YOU KNOW IDK CAUSE ITS NOT TRUE BUT THNX 4 TELLIN ME GIRL.....
ME: I DONT TALK TO JARED ..LIKE AS FAR AS TEXIN..I JUST SAY HEY WEN I SEE HIM....
CUZIN: O...

what i have to say!!!
ok folks!! i guess you like...well why do you care??? well icare because i did like him and despite what i say...i mite still do...and how would you feel if you cuzin dogged you out?? how would you feel if someone cae to yo face like that??? i mean dang....what would you do if somebody came at you with some bull??? would you get all upset and start swelling up??? or would you play it cool?? see everyone wants to test you and manipulate you.....you gotta be boss and handle it like you gucci....as long as no one is makinidle threats im cool and dont look at me like they have a problem then it is good....aint no need in actin hard boo...cuz this is not an act....we as black people need to learn to handle crap on a daily basis...every one cant be madea....
and um....
see thats my cuzzo..and what she do is what she do...now was i mad...yea a lil....cuz wen you really think about it...i was in love...but we grew apart...and now i got someone else....so hey im good....but i dont think cuzins should be wit cuzins exes!!! thats straight up jerry springer....lolz now did she or didnt she?? onli God knows cuz i was at chilis after church lolz.....

PS i changed the names...cuz ion wanna hurt nobody feelings....dont think im messy because all i do is tell it like it is.....and i can account for and recall everything i say or do....o and i kno we are supposed to listening to the preacher preach...but church people say you have to honor God in spirit and truth...and i couldn't do that till i got the truth....OK!! o and im not a messy or bad person...i just dont like how they came at me and i didnt want to curse no one out on the church grounds so hey....you just dont present yourself to people like that.....especiall at church....also i am so happi and im ready for the yard sale this sat!! i hope i get my zune 30...i kno its old but thats the one i want...n if you want one for cheap you can go to ebay!!! lolz that sounded like an advertisement!!!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

.:auto-tune:.

hey!!!!
i was listening to kanye...and they were commenting on his videos talking about auto tune.....now idk what it is...but on wikipedia it says that it correct pitch and the music....welll why is everyone trippin on that??? i mean if kanye west wants to do auto tune he can...there's no law that says you cant...i mean cher did it (got it from wikipedia)....pop does it too and lady gaga sounds like she does it....the media better get off our black artists man....dont put kanye on trial until u do everyone else.....i guess everyone wants that feeling that the music is authentic....but it is...lolz listen to the lyrics man...lolz stop tripping unless you got a album out....
ok and....
i heard that trey songz dissed RKelly, pleasure p, tpain.....and its all over the web....umm trey.....u dun went to far...you cat say that you over RKELLY...cuz look how many sucessful songs he has out and look at you.....all these people have more sucess than you....man what is your problem????he need to stop hatting cuz at the end of they day...tpain rkelly and pleasure p still gon be famous, rich and..pleasure p will be fine too....(cant say that about the other 2....if you wanna see it....check it out:
http://singersroom.com/news/3968/Trey-Songz-Declares-War-On-RB-Men-Blasts-RKelly-Pleasure-P-T-Pain-Video-Diss-
this whole auto tune and anti-auto tune thing is really old but trey went to dng far....lolz...he does not want that trouble..... people are going to always have something to say about celebrities and their actions/decisions.....i think pople should just get a life.....lolz.....watch them do dem n u do u!!! hahahahaahah

PS ILL BE OU OF TOWN NEXT TUES(I FEEL LIKE I ALREADY SED THIS) BUT ILL BE IN ALABAMA WITH MY AUNT NEXT WEEK...I SHOULD BE THERE FOR A MAX OF 2 WEEKS...SO IDK...ILL FIGURE IT OUT N POST WEN....ALOS I AM SO HAPPY TO HAVE 3 FOLLOWERS SO FAR....AND I SEE THAT BLACK PEOPLE REALLY DO BLOG !!!! YAY FOR US....NO RACISM...JUST HAPPI.....AND PLEASE TELL A FRIEND TO TELL A FRIEND TIO CHECK ME OUT...LOLZ....I WANT TO BE A FAMOUS BLOGGER AND A RADIO HOST SO......HOPEFULLY YOU CAN HELP THNX

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

.:ideas&thoughts:.

i kow i jus posted but i jus had an idea!!!!
also....
well i was thinking about haing themes for the moths and that month or week ill blog relating to that particluar thing.....also ive been wondering do black teens blog??? i blog.....
ok.....
i kno that ive been subscribing toll these natuarl sites....lolz....i have decided to press my hair...i got tired of how short my hair was and i was missing my lone straight hair....i do not have a perm so do not irepeat DO NOT get it twisted lolz!!!!!
here's some pitures.....

dont i look hot????

.:i'm back:.

sorry i havent blogging....lolz...i have been depressed...lolz about various reasons....

why???
well i have been stressing about money...see i cant work(im 15 ill be 16 in oct)...but my mama just wont let me work...and thats even if im old enough...and my friends' parents are urging them to get jobs...but my mama wants me to focus on my grade...(i feel like ive said this already)
and money is so important to me because there are things i want to do and places i want to go but i dont always feel i need to ask my mama or anyone lolz...i want to be independent!!!
anyways.....
lolz i have been watching videos on videos...i like blaqueindigo...ahanabarbie24....um and its alot of people i really dont feel like listing everyone....just some of the top off my head....lolz....well i want to buy a zune the one i want is 250 dollars and i want to put my name on it wit a little cute design lolz.......i feel so random today man....
also.....
ive been going to alot of how to websites and vlogs that tell you how to make money online....lolz not alot of black people i know do so...usually its white people that do it...im still researching and im really looking ino surveys...but idk...like i know i was opposed to it earlier...and thats because there are so many scams!!! i mean really...im just going to tell you that....anyone that wants you to pay anything....DO NOT PAY IT!!! IT IS A SCAM!!!....seriously...no joke.....lolz

PS...I WANT TO BE FAMOUS...NOT LIKE VIDEO GIRLS OR PARIS HILTON...I WANT TO BE FAMOUS BECAUSE YOU CAN RELATE TO BE AND RESPECT ME....I MIGHT NOT BE THE SMATEST PERSON AROUND BUT IM NO DUMMY....I SPEAK MY MIND AND I WANT TO BE RECOGNIZED FOR IT.....SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE IM WAY AHEAD OF MY TIME....AND THAT NO ONE UNDERSTANDS....I JUST HAVE ALOT I WANT TO SAY AND DO....AND THIS BLOG WILL HOPEFULLY SOMEHOW GET THROUGH TO MY TARGETED AUDIENCE....EVERYONE!!!! MWAH!!!

Monday, June 8, 2009

.:second thoughts:.

hey blogspt!!!! i have been so busy today!!...i made some oatmeal cookies and handburgers for the family....lolz....well today i was thinking about pressing my hair....like when i watch tv i dont see alot of natural girls and i realized its harded to wear my natural hair that i thougjht it was....i mean...i love my natural hair....but i sometimes feel guilty for pressing my hair....idk what it is....but my hair is much healthier this way and although it grows either way....i just feeel like natural is the way for me to go....i have learned so much about my hair like how it reacts to certain products....i have learned alot about me also...like i care too much about what other people have to say and i need to become self reliant and stop relying on the general public to think im hot...i should think it first....and im working on that....seriously....

well today has been a long day and im stumped!!!!

Sunday, June 7, 2009

.:the black church:.

hello, blogspot...i am so sorry i neglected you yesterday!!!! i just stole like 15 minutes from dalvin to blog...i ralli dont like blogging and being on the phone at the same time.....i get confused!!!

but anyways....im going to talk about the black church.....dont get me wrong...i love the church but there are somethings that i just dont think line up with the God's word.......

the tithe....the tithe is said to be God's 1/10 of everything you have.....now church members today interpret the 1/10 to be money......however...back in the old testament....the church members brought food to the church...and im prety sure it was for people in need...and i just know they didnt ask the person "hw do i know that you are in need?".....i believe they gave willingly.....also the black church promotes the idea that one of its members is supposed to go without for the sake of the church......saying God will make a way......please....he made a way so that you could have a job and not get your lights turned off!!!!!i have never missed a meal....my mama always said "why should i miss a meal for someone else? they are meating!!!" but anyways!!

i dont like how church members fight more than people who don't attend church....i mean they are down right nasty and do not care....sometimes they dont even think that they are wrong....they feel as though they can say anyting they want and that they are some how exempt from the word of God....and the minute someone falls they point the finger, call them a sinner or unclean, and find some kind of scripture to point it out in front of everyone how you messed up......and i just hate that there is no cooperation in the church....everone has to be a leader of something...no one can follow.....and thats where that arguing and bickering comes in.....church people are often two-faced.....always smiling in people's faces and talking about them the next and then when someone dies you have the nerve, the audacity to yell and scream and act a complete fool of yourself at the funeral please!!!!!!

and the dresscode.....omg!!!!....those grown women are always wearing those hi-lighter colored dresses....and those hats!!!!!!! i just dont want to talk about that....

PS MIND YOU I AM ONLY A SOPHMORE!!!...SO WHAT DO I KNOW?? SOMETIMES IT SEEMS AS THOUGH WE TEENS HAVE MORE SENSE THAN OLDER PEOPLE!!!....BUT HEY WHAT DO I KNOW? ALL I KNOW IS THAT I HAVE FUN AT CHURCH... NO CHURCH IS PERFECT....SO....

Friday, June 5, 2009

.:do teens have values?:.

ok i was surfing the net when i came across a blog ebtry asking i todays teens have values.....
http://www.askmen.com/daily/blogs/relationships/do-teens-have-values.html
mind you...i am a sophmore in highshool...and im not the most wise person in the world....however....if we teens today dont have values and morals...its because todays parents and even grandparents (in some cases) haven't done your jobs as parents to enstill in us what we are supposed to know....

and i know that alot of white parents dont whoop their kids and i personally think its your fault if the grow up like that....my mama said spare the rod spoil the child...(i think she got that from the bible or something)...and thats so true....if you would spank your children you wouldnt have them cursing you out everytime they dont get what they want or think they deserve.....and i know there might actually be some white parents that do spank their kids.....so yea...

and all this talk about if every girl in america became sexually active, about half of them would have an std....umm yea thats the parents' fault....see we live in a world that promotes sex and ignores responsibility...and its your job to educate us....stop making it taboo!!! make it simple and plain like my mama did...."if you have sex.....you will end up either pregnant...or youll have somthing you cant get rid of and will eventually die......and take note...if you get pregnant.....youll be homeless because im not raisng anymore children...so go for what you know"......and my mama didnt teach me about condoms and all that stuff becauseshe doesnt want me to have sex before marriage......

and drugs...i dont know what to tell yall about that because i dont like drugs never have...my mama dont play...lolz...im sscared of drug...im scared of what they would do to me...i dont even take medicine from th doctors...i just do not mess with chemicals.....so hey...thats some fear of god fo you....

also you cannot blame hip hop for the violence and all those other bad behaviors in todays youth....because if you wouldve blocked those evils channels like BET MTV and VH1...then you wouldnt have this problem!!!...you cant go around blaming rap for violence....all you are doing is making a complete fool out of yourself and saying that is ok for teens to blame others for todays issues....no dont blame others blame yourselves....you should learn to lead by example....

and for those parents who are like mine...and did what you are supposed to do...then youre good...like my mama said..."all i can do is tell you whats right. when you're old enough to know whats right from wrong, then you will be held responsible."....in the bible it says to train a child so when he's old he will not depart from it....all you can do is trust that you have done your best.....

PS I KNO THIS KINDA LOND BUT I JUST HAD TO WRITE THIS!!! AND THE ACTUAL BLOG IM RESPONDING TO IS LIKE A YEAR OLD....BUT THIS IS JUST MY OPINION...BECAUSE I KNOW PEOPLE STILL THINK THAT TODAYS YOUTH DO NOT HAVE MORALS AND VALUES...WHICH MAY OR MAY NOT BE TRUE...ITS NOT TRUE FOR ME...BECAUSE I MIGHT NOT BE AN ANGEL BUT IM NO DEVIL....PEACE!!!

.:just bored...:.

2:07 pm today

ugh...a debit card came for me from netspin or something and my mama wont let me have it....she told me to cut it up...ive always wanted a credit card and now that i finally have the chance to activate it she says no...."where will you get the money? you dont work!"....and thats only because she wont let me! she wants me to focus on my education..but i gettired of being broke...and i get tired of her telling me that we're in a recession and money doesnt grow on trees...i kno she just wants the best for me...but still.....

9:19 pm today

well granny is over...and mom is out...mi siblings granny and i love to watch scary movies while my sister hides under the cover....we're watching the skinwalkers tonight...its the only thing we could find with a pg13 rating...sucks huh??? why cant all the scary movies be pg13 so i can watch them...i ve already seen final destination 123 and stuff like that but i wont let me...my mama does the parental lock thingy...lolz....o and im so over that whole debit card thing...i just needed to vent....but my granny says that my mama might start teaching me about finances...yay!!!!

and for all those online predators and what have you...you can try to come visit me...if you would like...and we will kill you...we dont play...and i dont give my info out so dont even look....its killa how teens post things about temselves not knowing what they are getting themselves into....i wish a nigga would try and pay me a vist.....hmmmm...nothing ever happens to black people...the real ghetto and country ones....the ones that have common sense...let me go for i go off the deep end....ooops...i already have.....

.:i love being natural:.

how am i feeling today????....just fine....i kno ive been going off the deep end about stufff that really bothers me...but hey those are hormones for you....i havent really seen a lot of teens that blog...weird....im just getting used to this whole blogspot thing and it really works for me...wen i get my laptop back i plan on showing an update of what my hair looks like now that i use a conditioner to define my curls....


i used softee gel...and that left like a whit residue n my hair...(i applyed it while it was wet)...it took forever to dry...and i didnt like how it felt....i used a courling mousse and it made my hair feel dry.....i used a curl activating serum or watevr(its in a yellow/gold bottle) and it really doesnt do anything for my hair.....and the curl keeper stuff(in a green and whit bottle) smells good but it makes my hair feel oily /greasy....i dont like that....


i love the conditioner...for now....and im dealing with my two different curl patterns...i might actually wear my natural hair...i love the curls...i really do....and ilove that my hair is healthy....


but its good for me to rebuild my confidence becuase when i was wearing my hair natural at school...they just was hating on me sooooo bad...so i just flat ironed it so they would stop asking me...."girl are you having a bad hair day?" "my mama told me taught me to care how i walked out of the house"..."that ish look nasty, you need to do something wuth it!"...


it hurt but the funny part about it was that i learned who were really my friends and who still thought the sunshined out my behind.....boys and girls said things like that and those are actually the words.....but now it doesnt matter because i know the only person from keeping from rocking my do was me....and the hardest part is letting go...so i did and im learning to care for my hair...screw the hatters because im a trendsetter and way before my time...get with it....hunni!!!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

.:if ur considering making money online:.

RIGHT NOW MIGHT BE THE MOST IMPORTANT YEARS OF OUR LIVES<-BEING A TEENAGER......AND TO GO PLACES AND DO THINGS YOU HAVE TO HAVE MONEY...AND IF YOU'RE LIKE ME...YOU PROBABLY DON'T INTEND ON DEPEND ON YOUR PARENTS FOREVER....BUT MY MOTHER DOESN'T APPROVE OF ME WORKING AT ALL.....SILLY HUH???....BUT ANYWAYS I WAS WATCHING TV AND A BIGSPOT.COM COMMERICAL CAME ON AND I SIGN UP FOR IT....BIG MISTAKE....

WHEN YOU SIGN UP FOR THESE WEBSITES YOU NEED TO MAKE SURE THEY ARE LEGIT AND THE MOST LEGIT ONES REQUIRE THAT YOU PAY 34-68 DOLLARS UP FRONT AND YOU HAVE TO HAVE A CREDIT CARD....AND MAYBE EVEN PAY PAL.....AND THE FREE ONES REQUIRE YOU TO HAVE A CREDIT CARD AND YOU HAVE TO SIGN UP TO A WHOLE LOT OF THOSE WEBSITES.....ITS REALLY STUPID AND YOU GET ALL THOSE JUNK MAILS....I JUST DO NOT RECOMMEND IT.....

IF YOU WANT TO MAKE MONEY ONLINE I SUGGEST YOU DO A BLOG....MIND YOU....I HAVENT MADE ANY MONEY BECAUSE I'M JUST STARTING OUT....BUT I RESEARCHED HOW TO BE SUCCESSFUL/POPULAR WITH A BLOG...AND SOURCES SAY YOU SHOULD DO ADS...AND GET VISIOTRS...AND PROMOTE YOUR WEBSITE BASICALLY...HOWEVER YOU SHOULDNT TRY TO MAKE MONEY SO QUICKLY...YOU SHOULD FOCUS ON YOUR CONTENT THEN MONEY.....

TO PROMOTE YOUR WEBSITE SHOULD SIGN UP ON DIGG AND TWITTER...BUT THATS LIKE AT LEAST AFTER YOU WRITE A COUPLE OF STORIES SO WHEN PEOPLE GO TO YOUR BLOG THEY WONT BE THERE EMPTY HANDED....O AND WHEN YOU START A BLOG YOU SHOULD EITHER LET WORD PRESS OR BLOGGER HOST IT...BUT THATS MY OPINION....BUT I HIGHLY DO NOT RECOMEND VOX BECAUSE IT IS VERY HARD TO CHANGE YOUR LAYOUTS AND DESIGNS I FIND THAT BLOGGER IS THER BEST SEEING THAT I USE IT....

AND WHEN YOU START YOUR BLOG...BE SURE YOUR DESIGNS GO WITH YOUR THEME....MY BLOG IS MAINLY ABOUT MY OPINION.....SO WHATEVER YOU DO BE SURE YOU ARE PASSIONATE ABOUT IT....

P.S....NOW IM NOT AN EXPERT...AND I DONT HAVE TO BE...ANYONE CAN RESEARCH FOR THEMSELVES AND SEE WHAT WORKS FOR THEM...DONT JUST TAKE MY WORD....YOU SHOULD FIND OUT FOR YOU....

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

.:stop lying! you know soulja boy sucks!:.

IF I HEAR SOULJA BOY'S TURN MY SWAG ON ONE MORE TIME......IM GETTING TIRED OF BET TELLING ME THAT SOULJA BOY HAS THE TOP SONG!!!! HE CANT EVEN RAP!!!! HE'S A SELL OUT AND SOME SAY HE KILLED HIP HOP.....AND SOULJA BOY BLAMED HIP HOPS DEATH ON NAS.....ARE YOU SERIOUS??? YES AS A HEART ATTACK!!!
http://www.sohh.com/2008/12/soulja_boy_fires_shots_at.html
ARE YOU CRAZY???? NAS IS THE ISH AND HE'LL KILL SOULJA BOY ANYDAY OF THE WEEK EVEN ON CHRISTMAS N NEW YEARS EVE...ICE-T ALREADY SED HE WAS GARBAGE AND YOU CAN CHECK THAT OUT ON YOUTUBE!!!

SOULJA BOY IS JUST LYRICALLY CHALLENGED AND NOT TO METION A SELL OUT!!!! THINK SOULJA BOY IS THE MOST FAKEST WANNA BE FROM ATLANTA RAPPER EVER....HE IS FROM BATESVILLE,MS!!!! DONT BELIEVE ME LOOK IT UP....
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=56782768
HE DOESNT EVEN REP MS......EVERYTIME U SEE HIM HE TALKIN ABOUT ATLANTA...IM NOT HATTIN ON ATL CUZ I LOVE THEM I HATIN THE FACT THAT HE'S A SELL OUT!!!!

HIS BEATS ARE GREAT HOWEVER WHENEVER IM LISTENIN TO HIS LYRICS I FEEL LIKE MI IQ DROPPED TERRIBLY!!! HE SHOULD JUST BE A PRODUCER OR A DESIGNER....HIS SKILLS ARE LIMITED....

ALL HE IS DOING IS SUCKING UP THE FAME FROM PEOPLE THAT ARE REAL AND TRYNA MAKE IT....THIS JUST SUCKS....I DONT SEE WHY PEOPLE LIKE HIM...GIRLS LIKE HIM BECAUSE HE'S RICH AND CUTE???? HE DOES HAVE A FACE BUT HIS BODY IS SKINNY AND THATS NOTHING I CAN DEAL WITH!!! AN ANOREXIC RAPPER!!!!

P.S. I WAS GOING TO TALK ABOUT HIM INSIDE THE OTHER POST BUT I FELT LIKE THIS DISGRACE TO MUSIC SHOULD HAVE HIS OWN POST.....LOLZ...N I UNDERSTAND HOW PEOPLE DONT LIKE HIM BUT EVRYONE NO MATTER HOW LYRICALLY CHALLENGED THEY ARE....SHOULD HAVE PEACE SO WHEN HE PUTS OUT A SONG...LISTEN TO IT....THEN GET OFF IN DAT!!!! LOLZ I JUST LIKE REVIEWING MATERIAL ....LIKE I SED YOU MAY NOT AGREE(I SERIOUSLY DOUBT IT) BUT IT AINT YO BLOG!!!!

.:what's the problem with mtv,bet,& vh1?:.

WHAT IS UP WITH BET, MTV AND VH1 BROADCASTING CRAPPY MUSIC AND TV SHOWS????? DOES FLAVA OF LOVE SOUND FAMILIAR?? HOW ABOUT ROCK OF LOVE, CHARM SCHOOL, I LOVE NEW YORK, NEWYORK GOES TO WORK, I LOVE MONEY, A DAISY OF LOVE....THE LIST GOES ON....THESE REALITY TV SHOW SUCK BECAUSE THEY ARE ROBBING THE PUBLIC OF THE REAL RAW UNCUT STUFF....LIKE WHO ACTUALLY WON.....THE PARTICIPANT WHO IS REALLY SUPPOSED TO GET CHOSEN LOOSES AND ENDS UP WITH THEIR OWN REALITY TV SHOW!!!!! IT ALL STARTED FROM FLAVA OFLOVE ON VH1...AND BRANCHED ON DOWN AND ITS LIKE BET MTV AND VH1 ARE COMPETEING AGAINST EACH OTHER WITH WHO CAN FIND THE MOST CRAPPY TV SHOWS EVER....

NOW BET'S COLLEGE HILL SHOWS ARE GOOD.....BUT 106 N PARK IS KINDA LAME BECAUSE THEY DONT BROADCAST THE REAL HIP HOP PEOPLE LISTEN TO..THEY WONT BROADCAST THE REAL STUF LIKE BOOSIE...COMMON...MOS DEF....AND NEW RAPPERS THAT CAN SPIT AND HAVE TALENT....PLUS I GET TIRED OF SEEING TERRANCE AND ROCXI FLIRTING....DIDNT ROCXI GET HIT WITH A BOTTLE????<-I HEARD THAT ON THE RADIO......SPEAKING OF THE RADIO IF I HEAR TURN MY SWAG ON ONE MORE TIME I THINK IM GOING TO PUKE!!!!

P.S......MAYBE IMJUST BEING MEAN AND SPITEFUL MY SELF....IM JUST HATTING ON OTHER PEOPLE FOR TRYNA MAKE IT....WELL IF THATS WHAT YOU THINK THEN I THINK YOU ARE VERY MISINFORMED...IM ACTUALLY PISSED BECAUSE I CANT FIND A GOO TV SHOW TO SAVE MY LIVE...I LOVE MTV VH1 AND BET...BUT I DONT APPRECIATE THAT THEY ARE NOT GIVING THE PUBLIC QUALITY TV.....WHAT EVER HAPPEND THE GOOD SHOWS???? ...YOU MAY DISAGREE BUT ITS NOT YOUR BLOG....SO HEY.....

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

.:u never know when u'll someone u love:.

you neva kno when you loose someone you love.....
fr:Jazzy
Keep Tara in your prayers. Her mother passed away this morning
Jun3e 2, 12:44
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RIP
TONYA ALEXANDER
YOULL BE GREATLY MISSED BY EVERYONE....

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